I should be working on my Bio but I was compelled to write this short Blog to you.  Whomever reads it, I hope it is God speaking to you. I am once again at another cross road in my life.  It seems they are forever with me.  I have an important decision to make and have waffled to and fro, so many directions that it would make me depressed.  It was also keeping me from doing anything constructive about anything and as some of you already know Larry's passing also paralyzed me with grief.  Go in general I was a mess.  You noticed, I said, was a mess, I am not quite the mess that I was.
      Like all of us we do have choices, even if we think we are in a corner, all boxed in, we still have choices.  The key is to find the choices, recognize them, pray about them and then watch and listen.  We always have a "back door" but sometimes fear keeps us from acting.
       If you don't like what is going on in your life, first you must be willing to change it.  Sometimes the thought of this alone is frightening.  It also takes work---weather you are changing your attitude, job, partners, moving, health habits, improving your appearance, opening yourself to new relationships---well you get the idea.  None of this is easy.  But, there is an answer to this dilemma.  God.  Now keep reading.  Don't fade away from me now.  Prayer is a powerful tool for strength.  Because you are talking to someone that loves you, no matter what and is just waiting for you to ask for help.
       In private, talking out loud to our loving Father, alone is cleansing and freeing. It is safe to vent to Him because He completely understands what you are talking about, understands you and your needs.  And He loves you.  He will not judge you, think you are crazy, think you are silly or anything else negative.  He awaits your prayer.
        Now getting back to your choices---if you want to change something in your life, only you can make these changes, don't except other peoples to change,  YOU,  ARE THE ONE THAT MUST "CHANGE THE DANCE"  or things will not ever change, so you might as swell accept it and stop complaining.  BUT, if you want change, then ACT,  pray without stopping for your answers.
         My choices are many and the entire situation is complex, but I kept praying and I believe I have some very clear answers and direction.  Many things have to fall into place but at least I know what I would like to happen and I believe it is okay with my heavenly Father that I pursue this outcome.  My confusion was so bad that last night I dreamed about this whole thing and told one of the people in my dream that I was going to do something, I just didn't know what.  How vague is that.  I woke up praying, truly.  Then I made a pro and con list and that is always a good thing.  Then I prayed some more.  I got that icky lonely feeling again, that I hate but get from time to time.  So I decided to see if I could find an old friend on the web and call them.  Well, let me tell you, God was looking over my shoulder.  My friends, if you have not ever acknowledge Gods intervention in your life, I feel sorry for you.  Because, He certainly did that for me today.  God works through people, places an