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I just lost another family member, this time very unexpectedly and in a strange, almost “was meant to happen because it makes no sense” kind of experience. There were too many bizarre variables in this loss equation. I am in the What the Heck? stage. All this loss has me looking at the different stages of grief and realizing I need to rewrite them for myself. This will also help me explain to my friends when they ask how I am doing. If you ever lost an animal or person, you will relate. (And yes, this pretty much applies to all kinds of losses). Here it goes.

STAGE ONE.

Shock or “I am half in and half out.” “Half in and half out” is a really nice place to be. If you are able, you can communicate with the departed loved one. You can hear your Guides, helpers, God as if they are next to you, because you are half in. It’s not a good stage to be driving or using heavy equipment, or even utensils. It feels really good to be numb, but someone needs to remind you to eat and bathe.

STAGE TWO.

Shock starts to wear off. It’s the “remembering.” You realize your animal or loved one is not here and you are searching. I hate that feeling. It feels like LOSS in capital letters. It’s a loss you can’t fix, change or do something about. You can’t put them back into their bodies, but if you could, you sure would.

This is also the “WTF?” stage. Why? Why? Why? You think about what you should have done or could have done. There’s a lot of pissed off-ness to this stage. You could probably kill an army if you weren’t so tired all the time. Hearing “it was their time” makes you want to pull heads off Barbie dolls (sorry, Barbie). The spirit of the loved one is hanging around and you may have dream or physical spirit contact, but the spirit is probably too afraid to approach seeing your incredible pissed off-ness from the Other Side. They aren’t stupid. There’s a lot of crying in this stage that comes and goes and makes you look either crazed, menopausal or unmedicated. It’s difficult to resume your every day life. Plus, gotta admit, there’s a bitterness there sometimes too–how can life around you continue when your life pretty much just stopped?

STAGE THREE. 

When stage three comes it’s usually good to find some kind of communication with the departed in order to get over the “the sadness” and still feel connection. You are swimming around in the grief. The healthy thing to do is just dive into it and FEEL so later on you don’t experience a loss and then all the losses you have ever had come crashing into your face at once and you feel bulldozed and catatonic. Keeping really busy helps not feel “the sadness.” Any kind of distraction helps avoid feeling “the sadness.” I’ve been there many times and there’s no way around but through it. Sadness comes along with spontaneous bursting out crying at the weirdest things like walking down the frozen aisle of Walmart, or seeing a dog bed in a commercial, or for me yesterday, realizing I don’t have  to buy red lettuce anymore while shopping in the supermarket. It feels like a giant hole in your tummy–something is definitely missing, hopefully not a major organ in there. Oh by the way, this is an excellent time to watch every past episode of the Ghost Whisperer. That show is so darn comforting.

STAGE FOUR.

Stage Four isn’t so much a stage, but a mix-up of stages. Like after realizing I didn’t have to buy red lettuce anymore I was catapulted into the “pissed off stage” and I could visit there for awhile. Then I bounced into “the sadness.” Then back into the “pissed off-ness.” Having a creative outlet to express all the stages is also good. For example, like writing a blog post. :)

STAGE FIVE.

Acceptance. Like I read in a post on FB the other day, you just learn to adapt to living without the physical soul there. You might have peace. When Bun Bun my parakeet passed in February, I knew she really wanted to be with my other parakeet in spirit. She missed him so bad after he crossed over. He would pop over and visit in spirit a lot and taunt her with his freedom and wild birdness, so how could she not want to hang out in the light too? So I understood. The loss I am having now I am not there yet. When I do hit acceptance, I will have a greater understanding, I suppose. In this stage you might have even established a constant, clear connection with your departed. (I think how now when I go through big stuff it feels like Grand Central Station of spirits visiting, all checking on me. There’s lots of lights, ear ringing, messages, and thoughts. It’s kinda cool if I wasn’t so pissed and didn’t have Giant Hole Feeling.) Acceptance just means you are able to put away the dog bed or blanket, clean out the cage, put away the belongings. You have to move on with them in spirit, and you in body, but you are ready for a different kind of connection now.

I am positive in the way in the future I will experience loss again and I can look over this post and be reminded of the stages so I will get through it. The crappy part of life is loss, but if we remember that there is no true death, that we can still connect, even see them again, it helps us get through the process in one piece and with meaning. In the meantime, I am off to watch season four of Ghost Whisperer where even Melinda experiences great loss, and I will definitely avoid the frozen and leafy green aisles in Walmart, for now.

Fairy blessings,

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If you want to explore communication together, I am offering Animal Mediumship starting September 26th, a Friday. Enrollment is open now over HERE. 

THIS WEEK ONLY. Online classes start this Friday, June 27th. Classes offered:

Fairy Beginner Fairy Healing 

Empath Skills Class

Tell Your Stories: Where Intuition Meets Story

Fairy Healing the Feminine class

Healing with Roses

Animal Mediumship

Flower essence healing (starts in July)

Well, what you waiting for? Go sign up to begin having fun this Friday!

Lots of Changes

Things are looking a little different here…

I spent my Sunday playing on the computer rearranging, assessing, playing with my websites, and cuddling dogs in my jammies.

It seemed the Empath classes really wanted their own place, and didn’t want to be confused with the fairy/nature classes. Ha ha! So, they get their own school. Seriously, I have fairy students who love the whole Nature healing thing, and then I have my Sensitive students, who think the whole fairy thing is a little crazy. So, this makes sense. Each needs their own place to land here.

For January, I’m making Fairy Online School a little more accessible and more “self-serve.” I’ll still be available once a week for each class to answer questions, and talk about your lovely homework, but it’s more a no-pressure, have fun kind of thing. There’s two start dates, each on a Friday, for your convenience. So, if you finally want to learn about flower essences, or commune with Nature, tackle those empathic skills, or dive into animal communication, this is the place. Some classes will be retired. So sad. And some regrouped, but the student favorites will remain.

I am not doing any readings anymore. Sad too. I’m focusing more on the writing and teaching others how to communicate themselves.

Fairy deck

I’m working on new books in the HELP! I’M SENSITIVE series and the Fairy Deck, finally! Here’s a teeny little peek.

I’ve used some of the cards for my 2013 Calendar, and I really think it’s time for the cards to be, well, cards! So, if you see me on Facebook, do encourage me to finish them! I’m hoping for an early Spring launch, but we will see how that plays out with all the other creative projects I tackle at once (creative ADD).

I’ve been working diligently on my Story/Design Studio site also. I’ve been having a blast learning about video editing and storytelling used for teaching. PURE BLISS! Okay, maybe some of the program learning has been a little frustrating and filled with curse words, but the challenge of learning has been very, very fun.

Cyber Monday Through Wednesday Sale!

I want to thank all my new followers from Pinterest! My little quiz, Are you a sensitive, is practically going viral! For all of you, and my loyal friends and students, I give you Cyber Monday through Wednesday sale on classes! Sign up for January classes now at a whopping $25 off. It’s my thank you to you and to entice you to try out Empath or Fairy School. Yay! Go here to Empath School, here to Fairy Online School to sign up right away before the sale ends! These are crazy cool prices.

Take the Poll

I’m curious what YOU want to see birthed from Fairy Online or Empath School for 2014. Take the poll! I was considering creating a storytelling your life course also with all the cool skills I learned and can share with you. Would you be interested in that? What changes do you want or need? I’d love to hear from you!

A free worksheet for Empaths!

This weekend starts THE EMPATH SKILLS online class and ANIMAL MEDIUMSHIP online class. You can still sign up and if you are a subscriber there’s a cool discount! There’s personalized class course pages and individual attention. Lots of worksheets to play with and fun lessons and homework.

I may not be offering these classes for awhile. I will be retooling the Fairy Online School this winter as it morphs and changes after eight years of existence. Some classes will be retired. The school may shift altogether. We all have growth spurts and need change. Love to see you in classes now!

September Offerings Start September 20th :

For the Sensitive and the Empath:

• (ASC300) Empath Skills class
• (CS101) Care of the Sensitive (ongoing) SALE PACKAGE
• (EH136) Better Boundaries for the Sensitive

For the Nature/Fairy Lover:

• (FB101) FAIRY HEALING FAIRY BEGINNER CLASS
• (FHF200) FAIRY HEALING THE FEMININE CLASS
• (FEC200) FLOWER ESSENCES
• Fairies 101 (ongoing)

For developing your intuition:

• (IM150) INTUITIVE MAP CLASS (NEW!)
• (FD1) CLAIRVOYANCE class

Classes include personal or group Schoology course page, once a week instructor check-in, fun links and add-ons, cool illustrated lessons and fun homework! Go sign up for the September Fall Session!

I loved having Janet Roper over at the Designing Fairy! Thank you for sharing your love of animal communication and your totally addictive radio show!

We have a special treat for Friday. A great guest who will talk about proof of animal after-death communication. Very exciting stuff!

And now, for this week’s excerpt from SPEAK WOOF & MEOW.

First off, a great big thank you for such a successful BACK TO SCHOOL SALE! Yay!

It’s still summer, even though it is winding down and I’ve been exploring through reading. My most recent read is Heaven is for Real by Todd Burpo. It’s the tale of a lovely family– a young pastor, his wife, and small children– and his tale of a very dark night of the soul when his youngest child becomes mysteriously ill.

It’s interesting that before his child got sick, the pastor hit upon one illness after another of his own, and his life got progressively harder. Then his son became ill, and we are right along with him feeling exhaustion and questioning God. The first doctor they went to for help misdiagnosed the boy, causing the child to be admitted to another hospital much later gravely ill with a ruptured appendix. But the story is about what the little boy remembered when he claims to have visited heaven in those moments he was close to death.

I love books like these because they explore the ultimate question we all have about heaven. It is a Christian book, because the boy is raised in a Christian family, so what he experiences in Heaven matches what the young Pastor writing the book knows well of. This was the only part I didn’t resonate with since this was not my upbringing, but from my own studies I have learned that what we experience in heaven is what we know of and expect.

My favorite part of the book and (SPOILER ALERT) was when the little boy comes back remembering time playing with his little sister in heaven, who he had never met, but who was an actual miscarriage in this world. Boy, did I let out some good cries reading this part as I’ve had this experience, and often wondered what happens to the soul who was meant to come in and wasn’t able to which gave the author and his wife much peace. This also provided proof/validation of what the little boy reported.

Overall, it was a sweet and short read that I enjoyed. Although the book is about the little boy’s recollection of heaven, it’s really a shared journey (between us, the reader, and the writer) on how the young father has his faith restored after it was greatly tested.

I give it two paws up.

Other books about heaven I really enjoyed:

• Talking to Heaven by James Van Praagh
• Embraced by the light by Betty J. Eadie

Until next time, I’m off to teach Fairy Online School. (Incidently, I am offering Talking To Spirits and Ghosts and Animal Mediumship this fall)

My beautiful dog friend/family member became an angel dog the other day. But I’m not going to go maudlin and sad. I can’t. I felt her after she left her body and she felt excited and happy and out of pain. It was like she was graduating and I was the Sophomore in high school and my best bud was the Senior leaving for college. I felt awe, envy and sadness of being “left behind” to continue school.

Since my fascination is with the spiritual world this all got me thinking about transitioning and when we cross over. We don’t talk about death. It’s a scary topic, but the transition from “here” to “there” has always intrigued me.

I’ve talked to numerous animal clients through the years and while their people are grieving terrible the loss, I could only feel the perspective of the animal, who was doing and feeling just fine. And the leaving process was all basically the same for each one — they slip out and become their spirit body, much like when we dream at night.

Now the non-believers used to irk me. I certainly didn’t appreciate being seeing someone who is “flighty” “crazy” “delusional” and not attached to this world. All of that makes me laugh a little today. I used to want to defend my position of what I felt. You see, my brain works very analytically most of the time, like a scientist, which probably surprises the folks who really don’t know me. I’d be the first to not believe years back. I need to experience to believe and after so many years of experiencing, I believe. Today I feel a deep sadness for those who don’t feel the presence of spirit at all because death must feel a final ending, and that would be just plain awful if it was in my belief system, so I won’t put it there.

I think it’s all how we are wired. For some reason, and I often curse being this way if I am completely honest, I was wired very empathic and tuned in. After talking to many of my very intuitive friends I realized we all had one big thing in common — some kind of trauma in childhood that caused us to leave our bodies on a regular basis. Naturally, that would create a direct experience or connection to Spirit. Up until the age of two I had very uncomfortable stomach issues. I remember popping out and hanging out on the ceiling, most likely to escape the pain and discomfort. All that makes sense that that door would be open. And if we are able to peer in and are made that way, there is a reason for it.

When we sleep we hang out in the Spirit world. If the understanding is that we were in heaven before we were born, then we all have memories deep inside of what it was like. We have that knowing. 

I love quantum physics that tells us energy can’t die, it’s just transformed. That’s a helpful fact that my scientist brain likes — see, science is backing up my experiences.

I’ve been there when clients crossed over. I’ve been there when several of my own animal family crossed over. Being empathic I felt their energy before and after. I needed to experience what that felt like to understand and experience the big mystery.

When Lilibeth our beagle passed, she was in a coma for several days. I woke up one night to find the entire room lit up in light and I could feel her energy/personality all around me. Her body kept going a few days later as it slowly shut down, but I knew she wasn’t “in there.”

I remember when our beagle Jake passed. It was very sad because he and Lilibeth had escaped the yard and ran off for a big adventure and were missing. We found Lilibeth several weeks later, but Jake never showed up. We went exploring in the woods where we found Lilibeth and as we ran searching I heard very clearly Jake bark right next to me but I couldn’t see him. I thought the worst. Later back at home, we were all watching television and we heard scratching and a big bump at the back door like Jake used to do, but just an invisible Jake. Poor guy was trying to let us know he was still there.

But the most clearest communication I ever had was with Lucy, our basset hound. She collapsed in the veterinary’s office of a heart attack after a long battle with an autoimmune disease. I was blessed at the time with a very intuitive veterinarian who came over to us and believed me when I told her my profession as an animal communicator. They tried to revive her in the back room we us there. I heard Lucy as clear as day, but standing beside me, not in the body. She must have saw our distress because I heard her, “I’m going to try to go back in.” I translated out loud those words and everyone looked at me like I was nuts. Her body was a mess. There was no way. But then she lifted her head up from the dead and opened her eyes and almost gave everyone in that room a heart attack themselves. She said clearly, “too much damage,” and then slipped away peacefully. I’m convinced that day those folks all believe in animal communication now. After that, she was a constant voice and presence that visited which helped me survive my grief. When she announced she was coming back in to a basset hound body that was very small, my husband didn’t believe it. A small basset? But she did. (I wrote about this in my Animal Mediumship class)

I wish I could bottle what I’ve experienced when the energy/personality of a soul is out of body and what that feels like for those who don’t believe and who really want to know. It would give such calm/peace and a deeper understanding. I am guessing it’s a little like being an alien who never experienced the taste of ice cream or cake. You’d have no idea what it was like or even if such things existed. And for those further along in the mediumship/spirit path, I won’t understand what they have experienced until I do. It will just remain a great mystery until they have their experience.

Last night I was up worrying. I had much on my mind. And as I closed my eyes to try to fall back asleep, I felt invisible arms take me into a warm embrace and I heard, “Everything will be all right.” It felt like a female presence but I couldn’t identify at that moment who it was. It was beautiful and comforting and I really needed that.

Everything will be all right

I hadn’t had an experience like that in a long, long time, and it reminded me of what had happened to me in college way back when.

I was into the second year of college on a large campus in Maryland. I loved the excitement and resources of a big college but my empathic self found it completely overwhelming. On top of it, I was in a bad relationship, and I wanted to switch majors out of a demanding, unreasonable design program and I couldn’t. It was no wonder I was having mysterious panic attacks at the time. I was seriously contemplating leaving school for some place safer. One weekend, I was sleeping over my boyfriend’s family home and was placed in the guest bedroom. The room was small and a little stuffy with a tiny window for light to stream in. I felt very alone and scared. Looking back, it was one of those rock bottom moments. I squeezed the bedsheet around me as hard as I could and just broke down in tears. I am not a crier — it has to be big for tears to readily flow. I think the spirit world recognized that because I felt someone take my hand and hold it. At first I was naturally startled. No one was around in the tiny little room. I fully expected to look down and see a hand connected to a person. But the warmth connected to that hand overpowered the fear and spoke volumes of what I needed just at that moment.

We can be hugged for a moment or feel those delicious tingles when we are feeling Spirit. Either it’s the Divine reminding us we are not alone and still connected, loved ones passed over, or personal angels, it’s all the same: LOVE when we need it.

Have you had a similar experience? 

Yes, there’s animals in heaven, otherwise it wouldn’t be heaven.

New session of Fairy Online School starts Friday. Woo Hoo!  So all this week I’ll be having sneak peeks to whet your appetite to sign up and join the fun. Today’s image is from the popular Animal Mediumship class:

Losing our animals is so hard, but connecting makes it easier

Back in 2007, our beloved beagle, Lilibeth crossed over. She had passed away peacefully at home and was at least sixteen years old (she was a shelter adoptee to age was iffy.) I remembered right after she died I was able connect to her spirit and she gave me this beautiful vision of what I appeared to be heaven’s garden. It was a beautiful, life-changing experience I will never forget which I wrote about in the Animal Mediumship class you can sign up for here.

Gather up the virtual popcorn (the best kind, no calories) and check out the Trailer for Fairy Online School. The Winter One Session starts on Friday. If this doesn’t entice you, this ain’t for you. Have fun and enjoy and of course, reserve your space in class! Tell a friend.

Emma Lou/Lucy

In my current newsletter, I talk about animal reincarnation, and how some folks will read this and shake their heads in disbelief. I am a truly believer after experiencing this in my own life and see it as one of the true gifts and miracles of living in this life. Many students and clients will ask me how do I know if my animal has come back to me?

Here’s the top signs your animal is a reincarnated old friend: 

1. At your first meeting, there’s a familiarity between you  that others may notice. (When we brought Emma Lou to the dog park after having her home for only two days, everyone thought she was part of our family for years.)
2. There’s familiar mannerisms or personality traits that your prior dog or cat had. (Emma still likes when I hold her in a certain way.)
3. You feel like you are with an old, familiar soul. There’s a strong connection.
4. Some animals head straight for their old beds or toys with recognition.
5. There may be similar health ailments or allergies that the prior dog or cat had.
6. You will have interesting and recurring dreams of the prior dog or cat when the new animal arrives.
7. You just know. (Trust that).
8. An animal communicator gives you confirmation or validation. (This is often the case in my mediumship readings).
9. Someone else gives you a clue. (We had a massage therapist come to the house to work on Foxy, our red dog, and when she met Emma Lou, she immediately called her LUCY, our former bassett hound’s name.)
10. Your dog or cat has a distinct personality but sometimes acts out uncharacteristic behavior. (Emma Lou is the sweetest being ever, but every now and then she will fall into the growling/aggressive lunging when Sarah invades her territory. The behavior is like watching Dr. Jeckyl turn into Mr. Hyde.

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To learn more about this topic, sign up for the ANIMAL MEDIUMSHIP class that starts in a month. Early Bird registration special happening now. I also cover this topic in the ANIMAL COMMUNICATION course and mentorship.

Often, this is the question I get the most with students and other people. I even found an old email I gratefully missed seeing berating me for claiming that I could talk to my departed mother. How do I answer that?

For one thing, yes, I can talk to animals and feel spirits. The spirits more like drop in and out on occasion. I can’t conjure up. It’s more like having someone call you up on the telephone. I’m not delusional, I’ve been relatively grounded, and I’m psychologically sound even though life has really roughed me up a bit, and I’ve concluded that it was that “roughing up” that allowed me to hear or see.

Here’s one of my theories

Many of the friends I have that are truly “psychic,” which is really aware of other dimensions, or simply, what’s beyond THIS, have had in their life some kind of experience that caused them to pop out of their bodies from some kind of trauma. During that popping out they noticed “hey, there’s something else here.” No, they didn’t go into the devil’s world, which at least, I hope not. When I was a kid, I had such chronic pain that it was an easy thing to just pop out and hang out on the ceiling then feel that pain all the time (by the way, animals do this.) I was already very empathic, just like mother, and I think that’s how–the popping out–was why I also able to readily hear guidance.

Some folks need their worlds to fall apart to experience that there’s more then what’s here. GRIEF can open you up completely or…shut you down. That’s one big reason you can’t hear your loved one or your departed dog. There isn’t a thing you did wrong or something wrong with you. What I know from experience is when I am very upset and angry at the world, I can’t access any guidance. I feel cut off and stranded. I think with grief, you’re in a protective mode. You need to be insulated so you can heal. And then later on, you can hear or feel and connect to loved ones.

Some folks have had trauma and hurt early on and have always been shut down. It’s safer that way when the world is an unsafe place. But if you asked them, they will recall little signs that happened in their lives that showed them they were watched over, if they are willing to see it.

Lots of people could hear and see when they were children. But as they grew up and life got hard, they forgotten this.

Some folks are very left-brained and they experience the world solely from the mind, and therefore, won’t hear or see. (They need to rent movies like DRAGONFLY.) That’s not their path to hear.

Don’t Push

When I hear students say this, I always question if they are pushing or trying to hear/feel. That always shuts things down. Then your mind comes in and takes over. They are almost always missing the SUBTLE signs of communication and dismissing it as nothing, but it’s there. They are feeling hugged (those goosebumps out of nowhere), having songs come into their heads out of nowhere, seeing a shadow run across the room or a blink of light. That’s the communication! It doesn’t have to be a full-blown ghost giving a six page message. That’s just television! And always with their animals, they just need validation that they are already picking up a ton of information from their animals. How can they not? They are so connected to them.

I’ve always thought like a scientist. I need proof to believe and I need to experience it. Most folks are like that. So, if they don’t experience it or see it, why would they believe it? And the interesting thing is, when you have lots of experiences and you start to believe, the experiences increase.

No, I’m not special at all because I pick up things from spirits or know what dogs feel and think. I actually curse it sometimes when I have headaches from it and overload all the time, and pick up psychically what I really don’t want to or is helpful to me. I really don’t appreciate when people think I’m nuts. I don’t hear all the time, either, by the way. Sometimes, I stare at my dogs wondering what they want and can’t hear anything at all. Being sensitive can be a really big hindrance in my life, especially in my relationships, but it’s also a gift that can help others (I get to write about it.) And there are many out there who totally relate to this, who often come here.

Just Keep the Gate Open

The big thing is, if you are missing or grieving someone and you can’t feel or hear them, it doesn’t mean they have abandoned you or there’s no after-life, or worse, everyone who can is crazy. Right now, in this moment, you can’t. It’s not forever, and maybe there’s a reason, like I mentioned before. Instead, just leave that door open to possibility. That’s all you need for the world to surprise you. And boy, will it.

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If you are interested in developing your abilities to hear/see/feel, sign up for Fairy Online School to get help and info, which starts September 21st.

School starts next Friday so we continue to have fun sharing excerpts and having virtual cupcakes! Lots of classes have $10 off for New Students, and if you are not sure what to take, sign up for the FAIRIES 101 SAMPLER which is only $25.00 this week! Have fun looking around at the catalog, sign up for your favorite class, and come here often to check out the activities!

from the AM101 class starts September 21st

Interested in spirit communication? Take my mini course, Introduction to Spirit Communication. It’s a smaller variation, with emphasis on Mediumship only, of my popular class, Talking to Guides, Angels and Dead People. Learn the answers to:

• how to safely communicate with the “other side”
• be able to practice discernment talking to spirit: friend or foe?
• be able to recognize spirit attachments in others and what to do
• discern whether you are talking to Guides and Angels or loved ones that have crossed over
• figure out spirit messages and symbols
• signs you’ve been visited by spirit
• discerning false information and how you communicate psychically
• address the biggest block in the way of hearing Spirit

Go here to sign up and start having fun learning!

Fairy Detective classes

Earn your Fairy Detective badge with these fun hands-on, playing with Nature classes.

My favorite one is the Healing with Roses mini-class. Love, love roses and their ability to raise us up! I can see the buds forming right now in my backyard’s bushes. Sign up here. There’s also the Clairvoyance mini class that is now available On Demand too. And of course, the Care of the Sensitive class.

My brother-in-law sent this photo over today. He and my sister went and visited my Mom’s grave in Jersey and he took a photo of the grave marker. Of course, seeing this gave me a huge cry, but I no longer feel deep sadness. I know she’s nearby.

I had an interesting experience the other day regarding Mom. I have a touch-base cell phone. This means my phone likes to dial people on its own or go to odd pages when I throw it down into my purse. It’s a quirky, little thing that I usually like to scream at. I was worrying about a situation with a loved one when I threw down my phone onto the table and left the room. When I came back, I looked down to see that the phone had opened up to the Calendar page to a date: May 5th. I felt shivers run through me. I will never forget that day. It was my Mom’s graduation to spirit. She was letting me know things would be okay.

Losing a mom at any age is a humbling experience. It’s a loss that goes down to the core and you need a great deal of time to heal and readjust. Even if you didn’t get along or you may have had a horrendous mother, it still shocks you and rearranges you. My mom had her faults, but she was a good mom who was very nurturing to me. I’m thinking that’s why she visits a lot; she’s still caring for me.

My mom has been making many spirit appearances especially in the last few years since I went through the Trauma of 2009. I think she knows I still need a Mom. In my meditations, she makes herself known by sending a mind picture of an owl. (She collected owl figurines). She has her own perspective on things, she’s not all-wise, but she still wants to help.

How do I know they are actual visits and not my desires and hopes? Or worse, these visits are the devil playing tricks on me?

For the first question, the answer is “I’m psychic. Duh.”

No, seriously, after years and years of developing my psychic, natural abilities, I can tell what is a spirit visit and what is my mind. With a spirit visit, you actually feel a presence in the room with you. I often get a “spirit hug” or my ear rings. The air shifts too. I will have an emotional reaction that bubbles up from within me. Mom feels less corporal or in a body since she’s been “over there” for quite a long time. And I can’t MAKE these visits occur or force her to give me answers. It doesn’t seem to work that way for me. We have quickie conservations mostly. I think if I was really out of it and in deep meditation I’d have more interactions with her. My mind wouldn’t be so in the way. The dream state has been best for that kind of communication; that’s where we usually hang out together.

Oh, and the second question about the devil, I bring this one up because many folks having psychic visits, go straight into fear from their religious teachings. That’s not helpful and it’s uninformed. My Mom isn’t some waking zombie from the dead visiting me, and if the devil wants to influence and trick me he already met me in the Trauma of 2009. He doesn’t need to come to me as my dead mother.

What is the biggest lesson or gift with my mom visits, is that constant reminder that we don’t lose that connection to whom we love. Love, like energy, doesn’t die. It more like floats. There’s just different dimensions or levels to bounce around in, and when I’m really open or in tuned, I can hear, or feel, or see.  At least, that’s my experience.

What’s yours?

Back in 2005, I started Fairy Online School. I was burnt out and tired in my intuitive biz from all the sadness I encountered, and I was going through lots of psychic, expansion changes. I needed support for my sensitivity and quite simply, a little joy to raise my spirits back up. In came that delicious fairy energy, and with it, my love for Nature, and the discovery of my first flower essence I created to heal.

What exactly is fairy energy? I believe we all have it deep down inside. It’s that joyful, playful part we had as children. It’s interested in discovery and gets excited over finding an inch worm on a leaf. It’s grounded in Nature and in our environment and our senses. It’s also that little bit of silly that has you laughing at inappropriate times when you need the humor the most.

This time of year, I always think of my mom, who crossed over in 1995, but is still a pretty active, visiting spirit.  When I was growing up, my mom shared with me the little delights in the world–collecting tiny toys for the holidays; having a hidden stash of candy to dip into; noticing the picture in the clouds; following  that cute, little inch worm on the leaf; and enjoying a good story. It’s the little things we can focus on to bring back the joy into our lives to keep us afloat when everything else in our world is crazy, and boy, life sure has been crazy!

I told my good friend the other day, if this is really end times, I want to go out drawing, snuggling my dogs, eating pizza and cupcakes every day! That’s the fairy way.

Fairy Online School is the marriage between that re-connection we have with the spiritual world that is filled with miracles, awe, and support, and the creating and enjoying with fairy energy as we learn!

I invite you to join us with the many from all over the world reconnecting to miracles, to those we think we lost, to new friends of support this Friday when Fairy Online School starts its new session. Develop your natural, intuitive abilities while having fun, and most importantly, reconnect to you! Head on over to this page to reserve your space in the classes of your choice that start Friday. (Go sign up for my newsletter, Fairy Blessings, and you receive a special fairy discount on classes).